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Better late than never [Dec. 19th, 2010|10:41 pm]
[mood |amusedamused]

Okay, so I was totally geeky for Halloween and, sadly, only had a handful of people recognize it for what it was. Behold!

Yes, I got tired of people asking if I were Fiona. Do I have red hair? *sigh*
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Time passing [Oct. 28th, 2010|10:47 pm]
[mood |tiredtired]

It's been over a month now and things are..the same. I did find the divorce papers, finally, so that's good. I'm not making any decisions, yet, until perhaps after all of the holiday's. Since then, though, we had another death in the family, also from lung cancer, and that was a funeral I couldn't do. I did make it to the door of the church, but I couldn't do the service. I sat in a somewhat quiet corner and listened to the music. I've had five deaths in my life since May - that's pretty much a death a month. I'm done with it and there's now a block on any more tragedy in my life, one way or another. They say that God doesn't give you more of a burden than you can take - well, God, I'm about to break, so just stop, okay?

For next year, I'm buying an extra week of vacation, so that I will spend one week in Iowa carrying out dad's last wishes, but the remaining 3 weeks are all mine. I'm not sure what I'll do with myself....I mean, spending my time on myself rather than running to the hospital or such. God, that sounds cold...

I still haven't cried fully. I have caught myself almost breaking down while driving to work, which is bad as I don't need tears getting in the way and wrecking. It'll hit, soon, but I'm holding it back as much as I can.

But with all of the death in my life, I'm not doing anything 'spooky, bloody or gory' for Halloween at work. Instead I'm going the geeky route - will try to post photos soon.
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I'm a bad daughter [Oct. 4th, 2010|10:45 pm]
[mood |apatheticapathetic]

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Dad [Sep. 24th, 2010|09:37 pm]
[mood |sadsad]

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Allergies [Jul. 7th, 2010|09:16 pm]
Well, not really a post, per se, but a record, just in case I lose the silly piece of paper that documents everything I'm evidently sensitive to. I'm not allergic to anything! Or, at least, I wasn't...until now.

Short ragweed - 8
Western ragweed - 9
Marsh elder, rough - 18
Rough pigweed - 5

Hackberry - 7
Elm, Cedar - 6
Mountain cedar - 6
Mesquite - 6
Box elder - 6

Cat pelt - 5
D. farinae - 5

Epicoccum - 5
Aspergillus mix - 6
Aspergillus fumigatus - 7
Alternaria - 10

Positive control - 7

So I'm allergic to a few weeds that, of course, bloom in north Texas. Also allergic to mesquite and, again, I LIVE IN TEXAS, HOME OF MESQUITE TREES! Work is surrounded by them, which is ironic. And I'm slightly allergic to cat fur...but, no, I'm not getting rid of my kitties. :P
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Dad [Jul. 1st, 2010|08:29 pm]
[mood |depresseddepressed]

My father recently turned 71 and there was Father's Day. Unfortunately, since that time, he's been placed into the hospital after fighting diarrhea for 3 weeks and finally calling the doctor. Turns out he's fighting Ecoli and it was good that he was in the hospital, as on last Saturday afternoon he stopped responding and his blood pressure was in the basement.

Needless to say, he was rushed to ICU and given BP medication and placed on a ventilator as he wasn't really breathing much either.

The only good news since then is that hopefully today he was taken off the ventilator and be able to breathe on his own. The bad news is much more than that small ray of hope. His white blood cell count is also in the basement, as in the 2-4 thousand range, when, if you're fighting an infection, should be in the 20's or even 30's. They also believe that his cancer has spread, but noting more has been said to me, as they can't tell without doing a biopsy and he's not strong enough for that at the moment.

So I'm back to calling the hospital daily and getting updates - he's stable (i.e. not getting better, but not getting worse, so I guess that could be seen as 'stable') but when I go up this weekend to take care of his business, when I see him I get to wear the full kit - mask, gloves and full-body apron, to avoid contagion and avoid giving him anything I might have.

But, in somewhat happier news, I have allergies! Whee!
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Windows 7 commercial [Apr. 14th, 2010|10:57 pm]
[mood |amusedamused]

Maybe it's just me, but it's very odd to hear my name, spoken in French, FRENCH!, and some brunette at an outdoor cafe claiming to be the reason that Microsoft developed the latest OS.

Yes, she's my long-lost cousin... :)
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The Return of the Cough [Mar. 1st, 2010|09:44 pm]
[mood |stressedstressed]

Yep, it's back. Started out as a small 'cough cough', then graduated to a 'hack hack' and then got a PhD in "HACK, COUGH UP A LUNG!". I finally ran to the doctor and he was a befuddled as I was and we tried a round of Tessalon pearls (which are really neat little gel caps of cough syrup) and Claritin. My body laughed at the pearls and seemed to respond to the allergy medicine.

Round Two: Prednisone (again...I'm still taking the Pred Forte for my eye, and yes, it's getting better!), Claritin and Tussionex cough syrup, which I've had before. It's that nice gold syrup that tastes good, and has codeine in it. I usually don't react strongly to the codeine, but this morning I was a bit woozy throughout the morning. Whee! The cough seems to be responding to one of the three and he wants me to take some Prevacid to counter any allergic reactions. My question is what in the heck I could be allergic to in the middle of winter? Maybe I'm just allergic to Colorado or...well, it's spring/summer in Australia... maybe something there?

On the eye disease front, as mentioned earlier, I'm getting better. Of course, it's been two weeks since I last dilated my eye and it's still not back to normal. My doc thinks that's great, as it means the pupil is still relaxed, but I was taking those drops twice a day! I even had to rock the eye patch for a while, as it was too bright at work, with all those flourescent lights overhead. It didn't help that last week my frames broke at work. I had to pay to get them fixed/sautered and that lasted less than 12 hours. Thank goodness for super glue? My new frames weren't cheap, but I once had an IRS refund. I swear, it was like blood in the water - she has money? Drain her dry!

Starting to move in fully with mom to help pay for dad's bills. Not fun, as I had to pretty much force her to throw away/donate clothes that we still had of my grandmother's. It's been almost 10 years but there's still some things she couldn't put away. Again, I hate being the harsh realist - I can't fit into them, neither can she, as my grandmother was petite and tiny in frame. Even as a teenager my shoulders were too broad for her jackets, so I'm way too broad now.

Other than that, it's been quiet, but even that is shattered by the kitten's yowling. Everytime we think it's safe, she seems to go into heat again. That, and she talks to herself almost constantly. We should have named her 'Hummer' instead of 'Tucker'.
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Raining buckets [Dec. 4th, 2009|06:11 pm]
[mood |depresseddepressed]
[Currently Reading |What happens in London]

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Further evidence that I'm falling apart [Nov. 11th, 2009|11:47 am]
[mood |irritatedirritated]
[Currently Reading |Grantvill Gazette V]

Had my yearly appointment with the eye doctor to get a new prescription and what not. Well, things didn't go as planned. First, things weren't lining up the way they're supposed to, which meant that my astigmatism was back with a vengeance. But even compensating for that failed and my doctor started to run more tests.

Well, in the end, one eye is 'puffier' than the other, left eye bulging out significantly and man, did it hurt when he pressed down. Turns out I might have iritis, which is basically arthritis, in my left eye. So for a week I get to take some drops and wear my glasses the whole time and go back again next week. Meanwhile, he'll call around to some associates and get me in with a good opthamologist to have me checked out.

I did look it up and while I haven't felt any strain or the like, I've had the small black spots dancing in front of me once in a while. No idea of how long it's been going on, though, which is bad. Good grief, does that mean I need to start writing down things as soon as I notice them? Gad, makes me feel like a hypochondriac! Oh, a slight pain! I must have (insert horrible disease here) and I'm gonna die!


So now it'll be a wait and see what happens next. Get it? See? Ha! I crack myself up.
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